Life of thoughts

The life of thoughts

A thought.
This morning I was thinking, and at one point a question came to me.
Why can’t I stop thinking?
This is a question that I have had at times. To which I have found that Meditation helps.
It stills the ripples that form, the thoughts that gather manifesting ideas.
A ripple created by a stone that has been cast onto the still water, a ripple that has a life of its own. But with a ripple it is easy to see the source, while the source of thoughts seem to be a bit more elusive.
So I looked at the thought under a microscope this morning, and I focused in, under close inspection I realized that the thought is alive. It actually comes to life, forms, grows, matures, decays, and finally dies.
Within these deep corridors of my brain this thought is gathering, it is moving. Subtle energy, some kind of electrons I suppose, linking together forming data and creating an image.
Like this thoughts come into life in billions of forms. Kind of like all the different species that are on the earth.
Some small thoughts such as, “I would like a cup of coffee’” that is now brewing on the counter, May have a life span of a few minutes, possibly like the life span of a bacteria. Then you might have a bigger thought that is like, I would like to go out to a nice restaurant tonight with the family for dinner” This thought might live for a few hours.
Larger thoughts such as the thought of starting a business may take years or even decades for the thought to complete its cycle.
In thinking of a thought in this interesting way I glimpsed some new insight into how creation came into existence. And actually what existence is comprised of.
After all in the Bible it clearly showed how God’s thoughts came to life.
In the beginning God said, “Let there be light, and there was light and he saw that it was good.”
So maybe we are nothing more than a thought of God.

Here is the poem.

I once walked upon a beach, hoping God would hear.
The echoes off the ocean waves of a young mans falling tear.
I once ambled through a field, pining that God would see.
The shadow of an only man, Lying hallow as a tree.
I once sat on a mountain top, with such appetence that God should know.
The dreams in this young mans heart, are pure as falling snow.
I once cast a stone afar and upon a ripple there rode a golden star.
Twas in the state of stillness till the brink of the first wave.
With such vigor it toiled.
As a child in his younger days.
Oh, that I see this laudable dream.
for I had induced to my pond a magical gleam.
Though enslaved were the waves, in the stillness which withered them away.
We too toil our days, tell the wane away.

Then I imagine that I am the golden star,
riding this ripple of life.
Where in the midst of creation, God has cast a stone giving meaning to his pond.
I ride the ripple tell the conclusion on my days, when the quiescence of Gods love brings a close to his play.
With love perfect, I would delight in rendering pleasure to God.
To be dear enough to him, that he bequeaths me life, merely to watch me play.

Poem

A painting of mine of the California Ocean.

Here is a poem I wrote while I was contemplating the role that my body has in my awarness of the divine. While it seems to be my closest friend the body also is the root of many conflicts.

Anyway I hope you all don't think it to be too weird.

Tell Death do we part

This hand touches the lute

While my wondering mind

Seeks fringe distractions to fill the void

Even the music I play

Strays the truth into a eerie musky forest

Where pleasant colored plants bear odd fruits

Here truth looms close

It aches for its awakening

While I fight mysterious battles

Unable to know who my enemy is

Tortured flesh

Saddened, aging , vessel

I’ve bound myself to you

Through these uneasy nights and days

I demand your pleasures

I want your delights

I sleep in your senses

Tell death do we part

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So Adam and Eve have the knowledge of good and evil, the fruit of the forbidden tree. This is the knowledge that the snake had told them, that they were missing. The knowledge that only the gods had, but I think that wisdom would say, that the gods had the knowledge of good and what was not good. The divine being whole and complete, and lacking nothing. And would be unable to absorb the knowledge of evil, which is the knowledge of falsehood. But that the knowledge of evil is what Adam and Eve now swam in.
A knowledge that separated them, as we know the pain and torture that can come from being separated from the proximity of a loved one. This torture is surely evil because it brings about discontent.
So for god he would not have knowledge of being separate from himself, but may have seen the distance that Adam and Eve were gaining, as they got lost into the illusions being created by their thinking minds. In the Hindu religion this is called as Maya.
So they were sent out of the garden to toil and work to take care of themselves. With labor and sweat.
Isn’t this what happens to the child when he turns a certain age and decides that he wants to make is own decisions and not have to answer to anyone. When his ego has determined to get what is superego (desires) wants.
So to be separate and independent, which is now what they were, they would need to take care of themselves. And since god said that Adam was made out of the earth, meaning matter, his body consisted of matter, and required the consumption of matter to survive. He would need to work.
I like to think of this as when we go to school and our teachers tell us to work hard and become something so that later in life it will be easier to get the things we want. In other words we need to learn the processes and methods in which we can reap from this world the fruits of our desires.
It is also interesting that I find that the more we reap. And the more we gain the more we become identified with matter. And the further separated we become from the divine. So in a way,” to toil is sin.” When we identify ourselves with the rewards and we are attached to the matter. (The illusion)

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Now as the curtain opens for the next part of the play, we find the man and the woman in the garden naked, and for the first time they are aware of their nakedness.
Upon hearing the voice of god they decide to hide.
This new awareness of their nakedness is because they are no longer one.
The other night I saw a reflection of this when I was alone in a motel room, and decided to take a shower. It came to me while in the shower washing myself, that I was naked. This was nothing out of the ordinary, after all most people do not shower with their clothes on. But I had become aware that the door to the bathroom was wide open. Then I thought to myself “if I were here say with another person I would have never have left the door open.” It is only because I am one with myself that I was comfortable having the door open.

A reflection that confirmed to me, that Adam and Eve were once one with God and also one with each other. Because they were, before, unaware of their nakedness.

Sin #2 guilt and shame

The next thing which pushes them down the path to hell, (Land without God, or confusion) is Guilt for eating the fruit, and Shame for being naked.

Here I have to stop and wonder aloud as to the pretenses of many religions. I always thought that the purpose of religion was to show the path to god. Most of us are aware that we have fallen, and are living in a land away from god. This awareness is within us, as you can see with Adam and Eve that the changes that occurred after they ate the fruit, were within them.
If religious organizations are there to help us, then why do they enabling us to feel guilty?
Why should we to confirm a part of us that is not our true selves? We are not sinners, we are the spirit. If we can learn anything from seeing ourselves reflected in this story, is that it is our awareness that separates us from god.
So why propagate sin by feeling guilty?